my deepest thought

2010-07-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
Remember we used to touch the sky

2010-06-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

How are you going to face the autumn,
With the pain you only friend?
Just remember that; Before you know the winter,
You'll know love again...

ps~ and you know its goodbye

2010-06-27T12:20:00.002+08:00

Our love would be forever

And if we die, we die together
and lie, I said never
Cause our love, would be forever

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown
Solid as the ground we've known
And I just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up
And even in a desert storm
Sturdy as a rock we hold
Wishing every moment froze
Now I just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can't shake us
Cyclones can't break us
Hurricanes can't take away our love

ps ~ if you're reading this,you would know what i mean...

2010-05-22T11:24:00.001+08:00

Half of My Soul is gone
beautiful indeed
but ending tragedy

Yes I love you
But nothing like
this hearts You've betrayed
You cheated me

You said you'd never be happy
As long as I am
That said your lips
You deny all
What we created
You destroy all~

2009-11-29T20:34:00.005+08:00

heres the latest update!
oke serious WAVEHOUSE is AWEEEESSSSOOOOMMMMEEE!!!!
truly AZZZAAAAMIIINGGGG!!!!
the atmosphere.....the people.....
SUPERRRB!!!!
so i suppose will be hanging most of the time there if you want to find me.

2009-11-27T20:17:00.003+08:00

days been crazy,life been wild...
full of crazyness everywhere...
finally a glimpse of hope is near...
but it seems quite far...
i want to be able to love her next but i know she isnt ready
i will be waiting for it to come...
this life have been truly quiet till you come around...
but why must you go and talk about it over and over again..
can you just stop about it and talk about us??
i know that u cant move on yet but whyy cant you think of me here...
just stop whatever you are doin and come to your senses soon....

anyway,stop all this mushy2 things...
so heres the latest updates about me and long lost cuzzy...
finally a decent outing for both of us...
and yea...shes likes "i dont know that s'pore is that big..."
what a funny cuzzy i have here...hahaha!!
and yea...next outing for us will be more fun ok??
i know that u are sad too cuzzy but stay strong aite...
cheer up...

ps~ i just want you to know how much u mean to me...

2009-11-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

Itukah dia kekasih yang pernah berjanji
Memberi cinta untukmu sepenuh hati
Ia akan menyesal suatu hari nanti
Apabila ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu ini ingin kembali

Tahukah engkau ia tak sepadan denganmu
Walau beribu bisik pujuknya merayu
Kekasihmu ini terlalu ingin kembali
Sejak ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu itu selalu membuat kau bersedih

Oh kekasihmu ini akan merasa gembira
Andai dapat bersama untuk selama-lama
Hanya untuk menyayangimu
Hanya untuk bercinta lagi
Andai engkau berduka
Aku yang pertama di sisi
Andai engkau bahagia
Akukan terus berdoa
Semoga suatu masa
Pintu hatimukan terbuka
Dan kita akan kembali
Bercinta lagi

Aku akan kembali
Walau jalan berliku
Kernaku kekasihmu

ps~just for you dumbass hunnybeary~

2009-10-27T20:27:00.005+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!!!
sorry for the late update...bz with work and stuff..
anyway,heres the latest update..
ZOUK AGAIN BABE!!!
MSTRKRFT was around & damn it was a real nice showdown...
so not much talk..heres the pic...

and joke of the day...

ladyfadanna - hey eyann,does this hot pants make my vagina look fat?
eyannSTIFFLER - huh?? (super duper lost)
ladyfadanna - seriously,does it looks fat?
eyannSTIFFLER - woahh...thats a real question...no it don't..(walks past)
eyannSTIFFLER - how i wish i can see it...
ladyfadanna - awwwwwwwww.....how sweet!!!
eyannSTIFFLER - huh???? (again super duper muper lost)

2009-10-21T20:43:00.001+08:00

That Fionna and me,
Do it in my van every Sunday.

She tells him shes in church,
But she doesn't go,
Still shes on her knees, and...

Fionna says shes out shopping,
But shes under me and I'm not stopping.

Fionna's got him on the phone,
and she's trying not to moan.
It's a three way call,
and he knows nothing.

The, parking lot, why not?
It's so cool when you're on top.

I did her on his birthday.

2009-10-01T17:17:00.001+08:00

I reach towards the sky
I've said my goodbyes
My heart's always with you now

I've always been true
I've waited so long just to come hold you

It's been far too long, we've proven our
love over time’s so strong, in all that we do
The stars in the night, they lend me their light
to bring me closer to heaven with you

2009-10-01T17:11:00.005+08:00

so another update!!!!
just wana wish!!!
HAPPY BTHDAE APIZ!!!!!

&&heres the pics!!

so another update!!!!
just wana wish!!!
HAPPY BTHDAE APIZ!!!!!

&&heres the pics!!

2009-09-30T19:46:00.006+08:00

so this is hari raya season..guess much laughter....real funn!!
im just too tired to type right now..
soo just take a look at the pics aite...2 weeks of raya in random..

2009-09-16T12:10:00.004+08:00

so here's the latest update!!!
soo a group of peeps from stc went to nova's club n had a hell of a tyme..u will know what i mean..
soothe party as like a small farewell cos the course will end real soon..so its kinda fun n touchig thing...
soo here's pics to describe everythin..in random...

2009-08-09T12:30:00.006+08:00

PARTY @ PHUTURE!!!!

sooo heres some news feed...
u should really2 enjoy more than u can ever imagine...
its the most fun thing ever to do...
gosh...spending tyme wif ur mates,buddies,brothers n sisters are the best everrr...

anyway back to the post title...
sooo its like STC PARTY @ ZOUK!!!!!
fuyoooooo....kinda loving it n all..
dance all nyte long....drinking....vomitiing...
all kind of crazy shiit truly happen...
sooo i really cant type longer cosi guess im still having a bit of hangover....haiyooo...
sooo heres some pics in random order....okeoke??

2009-08-03T17:25:00.002+08:00

i know the first thought of you looking at this pic is that...
KIWAK!!! KENTAL PE!!!
hahaha....i know....thanks AIN for the pic..
aku pon tatau when we took the pic...but kelakar kepe...
tgk balek tyme kental2 dulu..
ain yg dah mcm maid....hahhaa...
anyway,just wana tell u all,looking at all ur past photos can simply make u laugh...
u can go like,'huh?? i was like that last tyme? hahahha"
seriously!!! go try it now..
ok chiows....

ps~ promise fulfilled ain~

2009-07-26T12:15:00.015+08:00

SOME RANDOM MOMENTS~~

2009-07-16T00:30:00.003+08:00

Love is not a necessity, but it is life’s greatest gift and luxury.
Love is caring, kind, and patient.
Love does not expect anything but love in return.
Love knows when to put pride to the side,
Because the greatest thing one can be proud of
Is a love that is shared.

Love is or should be unconditional.
Love is giving and selfless.
Love is therefore unselfish.
Love is not arrogant, or does not insist in its own way,
It is a celebration of what is right.
True love never ends.

For the unperfected will pass upon
The coming of that which is perfect,
And Perfect love never ends.

but when it goes wrong...

Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs.
Love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts.
Where there is love, there is pain
Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love; it is the faithless who know love's tragedies.

Of all pains, the greatest pain,
Is to love, and to love in vain.
Why is it that we don't always recognize the moment love begins, but we always recognize the moment it ends?
We don't believe in rheumatism and true love until after the first attack.

sooo now...life's sucks~ i dont believe that she would do such a thing to me...kinda stupiid to fall for her in the first place....whyy would you really do this??
i really dont understand you...whats ur motive?? im trying to be my real own self ryte now...changed alot...but still u can do this?? OMg!!! thanks alot~~ i really wish to blurt out all of my utter stupiid language straight to ur face n get what i mean....thanks~

2009-06-27T16:31:00.001+08:00

Seindah malam bernyanyi menantikanmu
Fikiran melayang ku ingin bertemu
Meruyup mata merundung jiwa mengenang kisahmu hiba

Tercari berlari degupan berbunyi
Bayangan terbayang khayalan membayang
Kiri kau tiada kanan bertahtah cahaya suriamu dinda

Jangan tinggal kanku
Kataku merayu
Tubuh peluk aku
Siapa kau ku tak tahu...

Terbangun dari tidur kau tiada disisi
Tersungkuh terjatuh ku cuba berdiri
Sesak bernafas kakiku lemah mencapai hajat tak sampai

Kekosongan meleret malam purnama
Caramu berdansa tarian tak sama
Senyuman manis menanti iblis tergiris nafsuku tepis

Nafsuku berteman bisikan nafasmu..

2009-06-21T16:42:00.009+08:00

BEACH PARTYYYY!!!!

2009-06-21T14:13:00.001+08:00

Oh it's about that time for us to look around and meet somebody new
Well let's all welcome in familiar faces, perhaps somebody who
Has a conflict in their life, oh alright
Tell them you're sorry but there's ways to change the wrong to right

See we can sit in a distant haze and watch rain clouds
Pour thoughts of greatness to help our troubles sail real far away

Well it's a struggle, every day we're stressin
But what's a life without dedication
I'm gonna pick up that soul's intention to soak in music relaxation

In a moment I'll be on my way to better days, while life is changing
And even though I've had my share of pain
I've been sympathizing and realizing
I've got a feeling we could be a better friend
Simply complementing every now and then
Cause in the morning I wake up and miss the night before
Cause I love the music more and more

2009-06-08T13:28:00.002+08:00

freaking life been ups n down...
last nyte...getiing to know sumting which i did not wish to hear or even know made me feel lost...
the feeling is like i dont even know...either happy or sad....
all i can do is that i can congratulate her...but i dont wish to do so cos its gonna hurt me real much...
knowing about you last nite made me think back about the past where we use to be happy together...
but now,u are already belong to someone else...theres nothing i can do...all i say is thanks for the memories even though its been like a year back...thanks...

Tak pernah terpikir olehku
Tak sedikitpun ku bayangkan
Kau akan pergi tinggalkan kusendiri
Begitu sulit kubayangkan
Begitu sakit ku rasakan
Inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
Jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
Hanya mampu ucapkan
Selamat jalan kasih

ps- how i wish i can turn back time...

2009-05-24T20:31:00.003+08:00

hello people!!!
life's been great last tyme since some unfortunate event...
hmmm....month of may SUCKS big tyme...
i done how many unfortunate event truly happen..
i feel sorry for people who lost their love one in a relationship or another...
n yea...i also lose someone...truly sucks...

how do u feel when u already commit to love someone alot but then something happen
how would u feel if she/he would just walk away from ur life n wouldnt be thinking abt you own feelings?? does it make u smile??
i know i did but do you even care about our feeling?? so heartbroken?? so freaking gonna lose it all...people change their way of life n would not want to go back to the old days but u made 'us' go back like last tyme... would it be nice to see someone u love just be with someone else? its easy for you to say but what about our heart?? think about it people...

you once told me....
this time i realise i've been falling in love from the deepest of my heart,
i do love you my love is not an ordinary love when it belongs to you
and it's you who stay with me for the whole of my life
accept my confession,
please believe me that everything i did 'cause you are mine

so yea...this is what u told me once??
i accepted ur confession....not ordinary?
but really thanks for dissapointing me...thanks!!!

2009-04-29T15:05:00.002+08:00

you look so beautiful today
when u're sitting there,its hard for me to look away
so i try to find the words that i could say
i know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away

and i cant lie but every time i leave my heart turns gray
and i wanna come back to see your face again

another day without you with me
is a blade that cuts right through me
but i can wait
i can wait forever

when u call my heart stops beating
when u're gone it won't stops bleeding
i can wait, wait forever

i know it feels like forever
i guess thats just a price i've gotta pay
but when i come back to feel your touch makes it better
until the day there's nothing else i can do
and i just can take it

but i can wait, wait forever

ps~ i can wait forever

2009-04-27T20:53:00.003+08:00

hello people,alien,ghosts,unknown creature n all~~
its been a while since i update my blog...its been left alone since
i got myself into the line of ns...damn its really kinda bz since there is no tyme for me to face the com like how i use to...
so yea...now will be resting at home for the whole week i suppose...
took my leave n trying myself to recover from this stupiid illness....goodness...

anyway,since i was small i had tonsilitis....
its some stupiid irritating thing that feels lyke its stucked inside ur throat....
but it was oke then..i had it recovered...
NOW,it came bck n it worsten...it cause me hard to swallow,fells lyke vomiting & it causes me to lose my voice....
sooo went to to see the doc n guess what....its in a SEVERE stage...
sooo the doc banned me from smoking n eating FRIED stuff....sound stupiid ryte..
but what to do..its for my own good...
so wish me gd luck for tmrw morning check-up n see what happen...remove or just take medication....PRAY HARD FOR ME AITE~~

for those who wana know what tonsilitis is,the top picture is it....

ps~ goodness,im much worried of losing u than this tonsilitis

2009-03-22T17:32:00.003+08:00

current mood ~ moody
current music ~ exodus - maksim

now im like currently bored shiiit at home...

hungry...n really want something nice to eat....but no ones cooking....shiiittttt

n yea....maybe just gonna cook maggie or just cook fried rice kepe....

later booking in at 8.30...damn...time passes by sooo fast n still i have not met up wif her....haixxx....nvm..maybe when i book out next week i could manage to meet her... =(

soo gonna get my posting later tonight later...damn..really seram siol!!!!

hope will get what i wanted ...if sispec i will be yeay...if other post i will be awwwww....

sooo now currently stuck wif listening to songs from MAKSIM MRVICA....

nice piano pieces...superb...n like i also dnoe that she also like maksim...FUH!!!!

yea....song in my profile...listen up yea....

ps~ gonna miss home n you once again~~

2009-03-21T00:06:00.005+08:00

went off to town wif the goobers...headed to somerset n yea...went to prayer at masjid al-falah..
MACAM PAHAM AJEEE!!!

den headed to cineleisure to eat at KFC...FUHH!!! its been along tyme since i ate the zinger N cheese fries...siyiiiioooookkkK!!!!

sooo kenyang after that!!!

den went to cineleisure to watch "silhouette" perform....but before that the band monochrome

did quite an exciting performance....the guitarist was damn good sia!!!!

den it was silhouette's turn...fuhh!!!

finally most of us agree that the band did a really wonderful job...n yea..the song are nice....

&& finally enjoyed the most of the day even though she couldnt meet me due of some reasons but outing wif goobers is always funn n exciting~~

sooo yea...heres the pics taken~~

me & khan~~

me n her~~~

black & rusydi~~

n yes....to those MAN U fan,FUCK ALL OF THE DEVILS FREAK!!!u guys are damn useless...losing to liverpool 4-1 is really wth!!!! & even though u guys are gonna win the cup but pride is all that we have defeating the devilss...ALL HAIL THE KOPS!!!!

n to you...i really wish i can meet u soon...i kinda miss you lots....

2009-03-14T08:24:00.002+08:00

the blue cloud spelled out ur name
the darkest is shining down
i love u & i can't imagine
if ur not here wif me

its early days but i knew for sure
but what i feel is real sincere
lets make this the best time of our life
to be my better half

& i will give you my word
i'll treat u nice
ask for my love
i sacrifice

anithing i could
everything i would

my love,u'r everything i could ask for
ur smile makes me happy
ur tears makes me sad
but i knew for sure
this is the best feeling that i ever had

ur love
brighten my dimmest light
make my heart go faster than before
as expects im gonna love you more
i promise

ps~this one is just for you my dear friend~

2009-03-14T08:19:00.003+08:00

woooohooooo~!!!! POP ohh!!!!
like finally,recruit life is over....
but yea..im gonna miss those times wif thoses guy..
doing all the crazy stuff together...
i cnt imagine that i can manage to complete recruit life...
being recruit is the most fun in ns life....
its just becos u just hear orders,get punished together...
complete all the main objective....
its tiring but in the end of the day,all of us will get fitter n mentally stronger..
sooo goodbye RECRUIT life & hello to sergeant course....FUHH!!!!!

sooo too all that have not went thru NS, do train urself more for now...
& enjoy while u can...

2009-03-08T15:17:00.003+08:00

this weekend spend tyme with fwens n more wif family as what i planned to do...soo yea...went out wif mum n sis to makan n to tampines mall just to hang out with them n catch up wif family stuff...
&then went out wif apiz to airport to eat at popeye...goodness..it was superb...hahhaa...n fyi it was the first tyme apiz eating popeye..hahaha...funny....eat till become fat..hahaha...
soo yea..thats the weekend i had...it was kinda funny as how life change n fwens change at a period of tyme...in a good way or not...but still i appreciate what i have now...my family & fwens...

the past

present

sooo yea...ns life change alot of things for me....BMT life is gonna end this week...POP is on friday...goodness...cant believe how much tyme flies...its really2 fast..& yea..its kinda be heartbreaking too see all my platoon n bunk mates getiing posted out somewhere else...gosh~ doing most of the stuff together..

ps~ im missing u lyke crazy & thanks for the stuff

2009-03-01T16:06:00.003+08:00

so last night didnt spend tyme at home...haixxx....just because wanted to spend tyme wif my cuzz...damn..i really miss mum soo much~goodness!!!!
but aniway last nyte went off to punggol n fish wif my cuzz...
catches wasnt that bad...kinda lots of fishes...kinda fun..
but the worst part of it i couldnt sleep at all...
the mosquito n sandflies kept biting me...it does hurt alot cos they were like pinching on me soo hard that its really irritating...
den went back home got some rest n ard 2 headed down to bedok int to grab sume stuff n gosh~ guess who i meet...my long tyme primary school lover..hahaha...sat down n chatted for a while...fuhh~ okeoke....done wif that~

now~ 2 more weeks to p.o.p ohh!!!
den dnoe where will i be posted...either go sispec or not....hmmm...
damn~not ready for tmrw route march...16click!!! east coast parK!!!!!
sooo yea...bmt life is really fun...friend,mates are all like ur real fam...do almost everything
together...sooo yea...2 more weeks n it will end...haizz....

Sunday morning rain is falling

Steal some covers share some skin

Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
That may be all I need

In darkness she is all I see

Fingers trace your every outline

Paint a picture with my hands

Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm

Change the weather still together when it ends

2009-02-22T17:34:00.002+08:00

so did nothing much this weekend...easily said,i spend more tyme wif my family more becos maybe i miss them too much..n also thanks jason my s buddy for lending the 3rd book on twilight series...fuhh!!! syiiiokk!!!!! but to bad everything will come to an end....gosh..how i wish for longer timing at home than at camp....

next,knowing that someone who i used to love n cherish before is getting engage makes me feel kinda funny...its really a shocking news to me...being invited by someone else but not her...haiyooo....i dnoe whyy im feeling this way but suddenly the past memories wif her came back like a thunderstorm storming thru my brain...i really dnoe should i be happy or sad....god,help me please to overcome this...n please someone,shld i be hapy or sad??

next,im goin back to camp..now then i realise that for the past month i've been booking in n eating loads of junk foods..i dnoe whyy but i will definitely craving for it....but then junk food or not definitely im just getting fitter day by day....n 3 more weeks p.o.p ohh!!!!!

&& to you~ gonna miss those tymes together....

2009-02-16T17:44:00.003+08:00

When your only friends are hotel rooms

Hands are distant lullabies
If I could turn around I would tonight

These roads never seemed so long
Since your paper heart stopped beating leaving me suddenly alone
Will daybreak ever come?

Who's gonna call on sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violins become my only friends

August evenings
Bring solemn warnings
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight
You never know what temporal days may bring
So laugh, love, live free and sing
When life is in dischord

ps~guess we will just be normal friends~

2009-02-16T15:20:00.002+08:00

this is what i see everyday for the past one week~~

finally back from tekong for field camp...

couldnt believe that i can survive there WITHOUT HANDPHONE,IPOD but can only survive on my ration(most suckiest food)...

but then it was a really crazy experirence for most of my fwens n all..

i couldnt explain much abt what happen there....S.A.F stuff....sooo its kinda confidential...

bt i cann tell u that,sumtymes the day will past by sooo slowly n u will just carve out woods n will want to give it to ur loved ones....but when duty comes u are alone,u wil tend to talk to the trees or making fwens wif the insect...crazy ryte...but the most craziest thing is that the mosquitoes are like F1 goin in front of ur eyes....

sooo thats some info for thoses thinking on field camp....

sooo now packing stuff to head back to camp...but with hp,ipod n yea at least a bed to sleep on...gonna be like this for coming 1 yr 8 month at least!!!!

ps~ u're the voice i hear inside my head...u're the missing piece i need...

just for you~

2009-02-08T13:14:00.001+08:00

ohyea ohyea!!!!

liverpool won again!!! fuhh!!!! 3-2 against portsmouth!!!

what a game...kinda of a catching game....

but thanks to FERNANDO TORRES wonderful skill brought them the win....

a 90th min header sealed the victory....wahhh syiiiiooookkk!!!

okeoke...now packing stuff for field camp....

be back by sat!!!! see you!!!!

2009-02-08T01:14:00.004+08:00

went out wif apiz n mok just now.... gosh~ it's a crazy nite at sheesha again as always....
but this tyme...much more worst...
really needed to spend tyme before the field camp....syiiok kepe!!!
anyway....sheesha was damn normal..shesha + carrom + BMW....FUHH!!!!
but then lots of thing happen in between 3 hour...let me tell u..
1st...headed down to al-majlis...a bus CRASH with a car....fuhh!!!!
2nd...a bike CRASH!!! POMMMM!!!!!
n finally...worst case can happen, drop the sheesha on the floor n CRASH into pieces....damnit!!!! den needed to pay 50 bucks for the broken sheesha...damn~ i was realli kancheong spider becos i dnt have enuf cash in my posb...but thanks to apiz n mok the lend me some cash..thanks!!! i wil pay u back seriously....thanks!!!! u guys are realli my bro....THANKS GUYS!!!!

When you told me that you loved me

were those just words

You can't tell me you don't need me

and I know that hurts

'Cause I'm looking at your picture

'Cause it's all I've got

Maybe one day

You and me will have one more shot

ps~ i wont give up~

2009-02-01T15:37:00.003+08:00

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

PS~ i know its the lyrics from the song dear god....but i guess if u read it carefuly,u know what i mean..its not that i changed or someway but i just have to adjust my life abit...sorry if i neglect u for few tyme...but i will still hold on to you....so yea,u gotten into ur dream course...good for you...but whatever happens,i will just stay n wait for you & i realli hope there is still hope for me..truly hoping u get back to me soon enough...will just wait for ur msg, call or even nudge...sorry i wnt say ur name out but u are a liverpool fan also... i hope u know who u are..

2009-02-01T15:33:00.002+08:00

sooo birthday been a crazy moment for me this year....goodness...
got not much presents but lots of wishes...
just too many....but just wana thank my family n fwens for the wishes n gifts....
n yea...its just a simple birthday for me..n yea..no mood to talk more about it...
but thanks granolaBARS, The living clowns & the others for the wishes!!! thanks guys!!!!
will be heading back again later...gosh~ nvm....the faster it is the faster it ends...
THANKS!!!!!

2009-01-27T00:51:00.003+08:00

back home for like 4 days means quite alot....got to spend time wif love ones n fwens oso....damn...it was a real exhausting 2 weeks but it turn out great eventually...down wif fever then but now seems fine...only left rashes to recover...recover fast please!!!!

anyway,went out wif APIZ, GAGGY & EUSTACIA....its been a while since i had sheesha wif them n catch up wif them....it was really funny n thanks killa for the compliment about my hairstyle...the session was damn freaking great wif them...had sume awesome food,nice teh tarik....n oso taught killa how to smoke sheesha the proper way...it was real funny!!! sooo the nite have been great for me...hope to spend more tymes during the weekend wif them i hope...sooo heres some pics~~

ps~ love the apple crumble!

2009-01-08T14:37:00.005+08:00

guess will cnfirm be goin away tmrw morning...gosh~ 1stly i thought its gona be really2 fun...but then i remembered how it will change alot of things in my life...yes...everythings gona change..i dont know what to expect there...maybe fun?? torture or whatsoever...but no werries....i promise when come back,i will be a better person...so what 3 weeks isnt long right...but im sure i will miss most of you people..

1stly,im definitely gona miss my crazy n irritating sister...promise that u wnt come back late everynite ok?? bukan ape....im just want the best for my sis...to mum n dad,thanks for everything..im a grown up now..soo i love everyone that in my family...thanks alot...

2ndly, gona miss the clowns who have been there for me since i was in primary school....gosh~....i wonder hows life gona be inside..gosh~ gona miss every single one of them...to APIZ & KILLA....Hope u guys last long aite....n to the others...TC while im away aite..&& lets go cashstudio at bedok interchange when i come back okeoke??

3rdly,gona miss the granolaBARS & goobers pork...

granolaBARS...u guys have been there when i need u..yesyes,i will miss most of the outing wif u guys,either goin for upcoming gigs,goin town,playin pool at e!hub or even goin sheesha...im sorry guys but duty calls...i will be back as soo as possible oke?

Goobers Pork...hope u guys wil win the most of the next matches...believe in urself okeoke?? win is a must!!! soo anyone wana replace the striker position FOR THE TIME BEING please do!!!! n i will be back n scoring goals when i come back...

finally to MJ....yea,hope you know who u are...i know its kinda sad thing that im ur first friend who is goin away...but still,i will be back oke?? as i promise u,i will just try to call u everynyte when i have the tyme...sooo dnt worry,yann will never forget you....sooo yea...even though we just got to know each other...n u know much more about me already....hahhaa...sooo u take care of urself oke Mj....gona miss you loads....

ps~ i don't have ur pic to put it up~~

soo done....alll the goodbye that im gona tell to everyone...hope u guys read it...will be back in 2-3 weeks time i hope....

2009-01-06T20:22:00.003+08:00

You're the voice I hear inside my head

The reason that I'm singing

I need to find you, I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need

The song inside of me

I need to find you, I gotta find you

Baby it's you

When I look up in the sky I see you

Then I turn and close my eyes

It's you
When I'm sitting all alone in my room

Everything reminds me of you

We’re a picture

In my mind

When I want to find you

I just close my eyes

You’ll never be that far from me

So don’t say goodbye 'cause

You’ll never be that far from me

I’m telling myself

ps~ MJ,its for you~

2009-01-03T23:23:00.003+08:00

so was out thruout the whole nyte last evening till dawn...was like having gathering because of a birthday party of a long lost fwen...it was kinda cool though...having party at a pub at pasir ris...sooo yea...met up wif my old fwens n kinda chat thruout the nite...n yea, share about all the fcuk up things that is happening now in my life...but den didnt realise i have been smoking for like 20 cigarettes in 6 hours!!! fuhh!!!!! now my throat is like sooo freaking painful~~

so yea...had my so my soccer match just now at pasir ris crest sec...its was like a freaking loss of the score 8-4...damn..we can do better goobers...but anyway,just wana congratz to the players who score today..KHAN,HISHAM,DALE & ME!!!!

khan's impresion after scoring~

Kuakui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu

Tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian

Aku tak mengerti

Ini semua harus terjadi

lupakan aku kembali padanya
aku bukan siapa- siapa untukmu
kucintaimu tak berarti bahwa
ku harus memilikimu slamanya

ps~ a real need to move on in life, im not over you yet~

2009-01-01T15:43:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 2009!!!!

so last night was a freaking blast!!!! FUHH!!!
hanging out wif sister was cancel eventually because she had to go out wif her fwens...
but yea,went out wif my soccer mates...went off to downtown east..
it was damn crazy,didnt expect alot of people to turn up...
but yea...terserempak wif sheila (adeq hafeez khan),lisah & friends..sorry cant remember the names~

so yea... before 2009 started was damn boring sia....all was like chinese band playing dead people's song..but as 2009 started,FUHH!!!!!
DJ jason chow was like started playing the best song in the house...was like dancing away, the atmosphere was crazy sia....

ZUL,KHAN WAS DANCING AWAY WIF THE BANGLASSS!!!!
sooo everyone got on the dancefloor,ZAC who dnoe who says he dnoe how to dance, but eventually dance...DIN,who was kinda shy person as i know,was like a damn freaking hawtstuff on the dancefloor....n yea, finally ME,was like dancing away wif sheila...but its like taking care"....its an order from her brother...soo i fulfil his wish lerrr...

so yea,2009 started wif a blast..n i think more of these kinda of fun shit is gona come bebeh!!!!
so heres some pics...

ps~ new year means new life~

2008-12-29T23:06:00.004+08:00

spend the tyme today at home...mummy was super angry when i wanted to go out today!!!

damnit!!!....soo sat at home,reading new moon..part 2 of twilight!!! fuhh!!!

den after reading was like sleep for like an hour or two...

&& woke up...plan to watch some movies whic i download recently~

sooo had 4 movie marathon~ fuhh!!!!

& yea...i miss her so much~ i really love you...looks doesn't matter even if ur hair looks like a broom or a bowl....

2008-12-24T23:51:00.004+08:00

Did the roses never open,

Are you left to start again?

And not a single tear should fall into the water,

That you kept them in.

Dear Fynaz,

I am the only one,

Who will love you until the end,

Oh Fynaz,

Open your heart again,

And warm me by the fire within

How are you going to face the autumn,

With the pain you only friend?

Just remember that; Before you know the winter,

You'll know love again

I stand forewarned,

Love will change,

Even the best of friends,

And nothing wrong with starting over,

Go on and have yourself a cry,

I just wanna be the man with arms around you,

When you dry your eyes

ps~this is who i really am...

2008-12-19T23:04:00.019+08:00

KL TRIP!!!

7 teens - zul, azmi, ali, hani, atiqah, sheikh & me = MADNESS!!!!

finally back home..it was truly fun without any parent supervision...

but most simply all we did was EAT,SHOP && CAMWHORE!!!!

sooo the updates are as follow....

1ST DAY!!!

met up wif the granola bars at tamp ard 7+... took 168 right up till to woodland interchange which eventually we found out that we have to be back to kranji n take 170....sooo headed back & den took 170..reachd larkin ard 10+....sooo had a meal there to fill up our empty stomach so we wnt get hungry inside the bus~ den the owner of the shop really flirts wif atiqah...realli funny,calling her ashawarya rai n all...ahaha!!! but for me & sheikh...must get our cigarette 1st...sooo we both had sampoerna international....fuhh!!!

ali!!!

azmi!!
Atiqah & hani
sheikh!!
baby

zul

2nd day!!

we took our bus which is lyke 12am..had the double decker bus...still camwhore in the bus...but cant even sleep..there were 2 pit stop..1st pit stop,i only went to the toilet n just smoke..then the 2nd pit stop was funny,me & sheikh went smoking...but both of us dnt realise that we were smoking at a place where people ard there pray...wth!!!!! den back in the bus & asked for zul some flu medicine...& eventualy sleep~

upon reaching KL,it was like 4am in the morning.. we cant go to the hotel because we only can check in at 12 in the afternoon...sooo we plan n crashed & get get sum rest at an backpackers inn...damn that place stinks & was soo small..but the aircon had the smell of apple...sooo thus the place is call APPLE INN~ sooo check out of there ard 10 like sooo~ checked in to the OUR REAL HOTEL at 12...& finally ended up in our suite....fuhh~ i was like."finally!!!" it was quite big actually....den we took our bathe there then we went out wif shikh cuzzin hu eventually stay there n we went to pavillion shopping....it was sumsort like taka + paragon....ate carls jr. which is halal....was like damn full...& was like remembered the tyme i ate wif fynaz...back to KL, then we watch movie there...TWILIGHT WAS DAMN GREAT!!! den headed back to the hotel n discuss about what to do at night...so we the guys except ali went off to have sheesha..the sheesha there was damn power!!! as eventually,the sheesha holder is made up of REAL apple...FUHH!! sooo finished sheesha..n went back to the hotel...soak in the bathtub & ate flu medicine & went to sleep~

apple inn

3RD DAY!!!

woke up like 10 am in the morning..siap2 n like 11.30 like that we were out of the hotel~ sooo the journey next was like to petaling street....walked all the way,& zul spotted a&w...sooo we had our breakfast there...the float was superb but the food wasn't really nice..ewek!!! den continue our journey to petaling street...reached petaling,did some shooping there....bought a long sleeve liverpool jersey which cost 50RM, lacoste shoe 50RM & a pair of socks,cost 2RM...but the eventually got bored as all the stuff over there are like the same..boring!!! went back to our hotel n put our stuff back & zul really wanted a massage...sooo headed down the road & found this reflexology place..sooo everyone had foot massage except zul had body massage....it was kinda fun...everyone got pretty ladies but i got one old auntie...everyone was like laughing,but she realli did the foot massage well...but the massuers was like really funy.& one of them is really horny...really over me...wanted me to take off my pants & all....haha...den went off to sungai wang n went to giant n bought food to bring back to the hotel...after getting those snacks,went to food republic n had our meals there....im too spoilt for choices...realli,there are too many food to eat~sooo i just had chicken rice...thats all..after that, me,atiqah,hani & shiekh went to gloria jeans while the others went back to the hotel...we bought 2 small slices of cakes....went back to the hotel & had a small celebration there...as zul open the door,we saw azmi & we sang the birthday song...but ali was like in the toilet baking cake i think..ahahaha....den after everything was done, AGAIN sheesha....ahaha..but now,everyone is present there..ahaha...sheikh went too clubbing n left us there...soo atiqah wanted me to teach how to make 'o' wif smoke..ahaha....funny!! she look like goldfish!!

a&w is the sex

petaling street here we come!!

what we saw in petaling!!!!

reflexology fanatics

i swear that hurts like FcuK!!

the hott cheerleader!!

atiqah's fav famous 'anus'

the cool dudes

cigar!!!

guys gone wild

drug addicts!!!

4TH DAY!!! watched wild child on zul's dvd player...was really nice!!den had some soaking in the bathtub again~ its really soothing & nice while listening secondhand serenade songs...had sume nice sleep & finally slept on the bed!!! syiokkk!!! woke up in the morning by atiqah..went off to breakfast with her & hani....it was a real nice buffet breakfast..very shockingly, i was shocked by atiqah because she refill her plate like 5 tymes...gosh!!! now then i know she was a heavy eater!!! haha...

den we checked out at 12pm n left our bags at the concierge n went to KLCC....walked all the way there...fuhh!!! quite tiring..but eventually we reach there...but we couldnt go up to the skybridge because the tickets have finish~ went window shopping...it was fun there..as KLCC was really high up...now then i know why it is called the second tallest building...den headed back to pavillion taking taxi n had carl's jr. again!!then my stmach is really full!!macam nk meletup...sooo finished everything & went back to have sheesha like for a third tyme in 3 days..& throat is killing me...ahaha...den ended sheesha,it was raining....ran back to the hotel...took our bag & got ceramah for a while by the security~ den took cab for just 10RM thanks to the uncle security~it was like flooding at puduraya...gosh!!!! naseb baek smue selamat..took the bus,but it was delayed...in the bus,took 2 panadol n got to sleep..

KLCC!!!

the kong dude!!!

5TH DAY!!!

slept soundly in the bus & reached singapore back ard 5+...first thing i did was like message fynaz & den called mummy....now back to singapore which is full of law...less smoking places & all...but overall it was funn~

overall,trip was like a 5star..lots of camwhore n shopp!!!!NEXT TRIP, BALI!!!!!!!

2008-12-14T16:11:00.003+08:00

last night fishing trip was really fun & also tired!!! DAMN!! aniway, how i wish i could just bring another jacket with me~~ its really2 cold last night...seems like singapore is having winter~gosh~ but anyway,catch rate wasnt thats bad...didnt cout the fishes but all i know is that we kinda caught alot...oke...thats it for the fishing trip...

now for my "BULAN"...im gonna miss you darls when im goin away to KL tmrw...but yea...its just gonna be for a few daes~~sooo i wish that i could hug u one last tyme...ishK~~~ but aniway,we will meet tmrw afternoon like that ayte...im missing u real badly darls~~ huhu~~

2008-12-11T21:07:00.004+08:00

sooo today was like fun,fun,fun!!!

went off to have a short photoshoot session wif AshBurnSon...nk sangat aku jadi model die kn...sooo okelarrr...but weather was not too good...its was kinda cloudy...was not the weather we expect~

but after everything,met up wif sity & hanis...was like funny...bullying each other...but gosh~

im really gona miss u darls wen im away to KL...missing u lots darls...sooo heres the pics~~

ps~i love you~~

2008-12-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

finally me & fynaz ar TOGETHER!!! fuhh~~ take alot of gut to ask her for that.....
soo i guess...now everyone can stop asking about me n her....because theres no point interfering our relationship...because i simply love her & she simply love me..& no everyone can know the answer ....ME & FYNAZ ARE TOGETHER!!! soo no point asking again n no point disturbing us or like having 'stalker'.....its useless if u are one....

to fynaz~ simply..thanks alot for accepting me and all...it was a sweet situation...n it was realli cute when u told me u were speechless....ahaha!!!! but yea...a new love life had just begun...it will never have an ending for all of it~~ love~

2008-12-07T20:54:00.007+08:00

Bagai bintang dilangit
Begitu cinta kita
Tak kan pernah binasa
Meski terhapus masa
Terima kasih Tuhan
Kau telah sempurnakan
Telah engkau ciptakan
Dia untuk diriku

the love between me & fynaz is getting much more deep...everyone keep asking me whether me & her are officially together...all i can say is just is for you all to think whether we are or not...im not gonna say aniting...all i can say is that a picture can tell a story..

oke~i realli am deeplyinlove wif you darls..nothing gona stand in our way yea..all i can say is that u r the most beautiful thing that is in my eyes...but gosh~ by not meeting u up today because u wana stay at home & tmrw because its hari raya haji...sumtymes i know that u feel bored by meeting me up most of the tyme but its just that its hard for me not meeting u up every now & then....yea...maybe one day i will fetch u up from school as what u wanted me to do for you...one dae perhaps love...but, i realli love it when u always make me smile n all...its like sumting realli nice because its been a while since i've gotten into a relationship state....but im also here to say sorry to you if u ever think that im being not a realli good guy or whatsoever...sooo thats it i have to say for now....love from babyMARGERA to fynaz~~~

2008-12-05T00:49:00.004+08:00

sooo heres some pic....

soory i dnt have anitynk to write....

im drunk n having hangover...

just some skim pic....relive the past!!!!!!

ps~hangover!!!!

2008-12-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

hey~ 1st....I WANA THANKS FYNAZ FR THE CUTE TEDDY!!!

I WILL CALL IT BELLA!!! CUTE KN!!!!

aniway~ realli appreciate the teddi~i know its kinda cute but you are much more cuter to my eyes....u cutey little devil!!!!

sooo,christmas is ard the corner.....i dnoe how to celebrate it but maybe exchange presentswif fynaz....& the others....but still im still longing for this guitar~how i wish i could receive it someday~~~~

ps~ sorry for being tooo childish~

2008-12-01T23:26:00.008+08:00

so today's trip was to eating at thai express wif fynaz & fwens...

gosh~ it was fun!!!

i ate the hottest thing i ate in my whole life...

i forget whats the name but its damn hot...
but managed to finish it...gosH~

my mouth was burning....

sooo heres some of the pic~~

shefa's green chicken curry

apul's food (forget what it is called)

the side dish

sity & fynaz sweet & sour fish rice

my super duper spicy & hot yellow curry+ginger chicken

apul,shefa,sity,afiqq & shawn

ps~ i love you

2008-12-01T14:38:00.002+08:00

went to ubin for a fishing trip wif my mates...

was damn havoc i tell you....

sooo was like tired on that dae cos i have a bthdae pit in the next dae....

sooo i guess i let picture do the talking..

no mood to type out now....

ps~ love getting stronger~~

2008-11-27T22:58:00.004+08:00

today was like damn fun lar dey!!!

went off to town to meet up my fynaz,apul & shefa..

wasnt expect to have a diff kind of fun today...DAMN!!!

so, where do you think we r goin??

fuhh!!! its HENDERSON WAVES people!!!!

but we the trip was not expected....apul & i was like chatting n den plan out to got there...

first we thought it was not far at all from vivo...

den,kept walking....must walked to the top of mt. faber n like 40min walk....damn~

but took it like exercise....ahaha....

everione was like complaining~ ahahhaa.....gerek!!!!

& finally reach the henderson waves...was like soooo 'jakon'!!!

ahaha....funny sia!!!! it was veri high up n yea..i was like sooo the afraid of heights..

damn!!! menakotkn siol!!!

but overall was fun~ now let the pics do the talking...

ps~lovey,please dnt do that!!!

2008-11-24T22:29:00.005+08:00

went out to vivocity wif fynaz~

caught this movies....beverlyhills chihuahua!

SYIIIOK LAR SEY!!!!

yea...b4 that ate ben & jerrys ice cream...thanks fynaz!!!!

aniway~ took sum pics wif her n all...

soo i realli had fun wif her....LOVE IT!!!

sooo yea...tried out some black&white photography!!!

give me some comment about the pics ok~

&& THANKS FYNAZ FOR THE CHOC!!! LOVE IT!!!

ps~putuskan saja pacarmu lalu bilang i love you padaku

2008-11-20T23:31:00.003+08:00

Feels like I have always known you

And I swear I dreamt about you

All those endless nights I was alone

It's like I've spent forever searching

Now I know that it was worth it

With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels

Thought I knew how it feels

But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cuz you leave me speechless

When you talk to me

You leave me breathless

The way you look at me

You manage to disarm me

My soul is shining through

Can't help but surrender

My everything to you

I thought I could resist you

I thought that I was strong

Somehow you were different from what I've known

I didn't see you coming

You took me by surprise and

You stole my heart before I could say no~

ps~speechless

2008-11-17T23:55:00.004+08:00

today was like a normal day for me...

but with abit of twist~

head down to bugis n met up wif syg n the others!

BUT!!! THEY MADE ME WAIT FOR LIKE 40MIN!!!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

den went off to eat at tong seng...

i didnt had ani meal there bcos i had mac b4 meeting them up!!!

after that went down further down the road n had dessert

its not normal dessert...like banana split n all..its like hongkong style dessert!!

gosh!!! sooo powerrrrr!! must go there again!

soo had 3 diff kind of serving..

me & syg had "durian cream"

epul & shefa had mango sorbet or sumting like that

&& sity had mango ice or sumting like that~

sooo heres the pics~~

me & syg "durian cream"

epul & shefa mango "mango sorbet"

sity "mango ice sumting2"

ps~ku kan selalu setia menunggu utkmu jadi pacarku~

2008-11-16T22:36:00.004+08:00

sorry for the late posting people & passerby~

sooo yea...went out wif afro n hafeez khan to rusydi kenduri~

& after that went off to TM & follow rusydi get his new fone..

& yea....saw KAK AIN PENDEK werk at precious thots!!!!

n not forgeting khan went for his haircut...

sooo this is what he wanted~

short haircut,layered back,spiky top....

n yea....he got what he wanted....bt he dnt like it...

what i agree most that he say that he look like toyol!!!

ahahaha...soo here's the pic before & after~

before

after

ps~imMISSINGyou

2008-11-12T01:07:00.003+08:00

sooo went out wif neeny n fwens..

kecorable...

aniway,gosh..love spending tyme wif her n all...

gerek siol!!

she realli understands me well!!!

weeeeee~~

n yea.....was fun,n yea...will be meeting her more often...

love~~~

ps~loveydoveysillybillyhonkydonkymonkey

2008-11-09T15:20:00.002+08:00

eyy am i in love??

gosh~ i seem cannot answer the question on my own...

seems to be msging her everyday,call her at the sleepless nights...

i wont get bored wif the sight of her.

bt im still thinking...is it too fast for me to fall in love back after the last break-up..

i cnt seem to be opening up my heart too soon..

why am i feeling this way...i love her but i cant open heart to her sooo sudden.

gosh~ i really dont know what to do...im sorry...

shes been the sweetest person so far but why i cant open up to her...

help me up people.....please!!!

ps~i love you bt i cant move on with it

2008-11-03T15:20:00.006+08:00

n aniway,met this one girl up...name olivia..
wooohooo!!!
n heres some of her pic!!!!

to feez~aku pon dah dpt dream girl aku...same mcm kau...hi-5

ps~duh aduh pipiki disentuh!

2008-11-01T22:36:00.003+08:00

went out wif my cuzzin last nite...

n yea...tgt of watching the coffin...

den called my uncle up to find out whats the price for the ktv...

den he tgt of coming along..

den bla...bla...bla...

sooo met uncle n aunty up~

n head down to ktv at cineleisure orchard...

was shocked lar sey when they ordered a bottle of MARTELL!!!

wow!!! GILER BABS!!!

soo martell have 40% of alc volume...

its was sooo much!!! abit noneng lar sey!!!!

sooo went back home at 2.30 am in the morning..hahhaa....syiok lar oiI!!!

thanks uncle n aunty~

N HAPPY BTHDAE ABG MAT!!!!!

soooo got soccer match just now..its been a while since played soccer...

was expecting a lose bcos of looking at the opponent tyle of playing..

bt afterall...we won the match 6-5!!!! syiok lar oii!!!

n to all greengoobers peeps~~ MAJULAH GOOBERS!!!

2008-10-29T23:53:00.005+08:00

gosh!!! fun day lar sia!!!
gereks!!! thanks syuk!!!!
soo went out to sungai road bt canot find aniting nice lar sia..
den head down to mustafa centre to find a present for my fwen upcoming bthdae!!
tynk got wat i wanted!!!

den2 WALKED all the way to town n den found this cool 'electric' shades!!!
wow!!! damn nice lar sia!!!
den syuk recomendded to eat at popeye...SEDAP LAR SIOL!!
sooo ate popeye at singapore flyers!!!
sooo nice sia....ate the 3 piece chicken!!! cannot finish!!!
wakakaka!!!
den went back home n camwhore alot.....gereks lar siol!!!
met the clowns up n laugh alot.....gereks!!!
sooo heres the pics!!!!

'electric' shades!!!!

ps~hope u believe it when i say its true~

2008-10-28T15:38:00.005+08:00

this is what i look like today

and i'm trying not to pull out my hair

i'm trying not to show it cause i'm far too shy to grow it back there

that's probably why i like wearing hats

there's no denying i'm deferring the facts

avoiding confrontation

lacks tact in a situation

behind every line is a lesson yet to learn

but if you ask me

the feeling that i'm feeling is overwhelming

and oh it goes to show

i've so much to know

I wrote this for my prettiest friend

who while trying not to prove that i care

trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away

well she can't see she's making me crazy now

i don't believe she knows she's amazing how

she has me holding my breathe

so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for her

ps~the way it unfold is yet to be told my prettiest friend

2008-10-27T22:00:00.004+08:00

sooo had soccer practice just now....sooo sorry for late to update my blog..

aniway~ went off fishing last nite wif few of goobers peeps

damn if not would have gone riding wif my school mates bt in the end smue tk jadi..

so,went fishing lar..haha...damn it was superb i tell you!!

got lots of fish~ SYIIOK LAR OII!!!!

sooo stayed u whole night n fish the whole night!!!
den next week guess will be goin again..hahha~

sooo heres the pic~

ps~it feels soo empty~

2008-10-26T12:27:00.004+08:00

wahh~~ like like 12.30pm right now...

damn~im sooo damn tired lar sey~
sooo last nite helped out hisham to do his dad's vespa..

sooo he choose the colour black for the base n maroon

sooo lots of steps to be done lar sey...

covering....white paint...taping...n much more..

sooo ended up ard 12am like that....den went to eat the nasi pattaya..

POWER lar oiiI!!!

hahaha...sooo here are some of the pics~~~

ps~the dream girl of mine~

2008-10-23T18:28:00.003+08:00

Saat kau pergi

Berlinanglah air mataku

Betapa cinta ku rasakan

Kebahagiaan itu

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2008-10-20T00:44:00.005+08:00

went out wif my ite peeps jus now!!!
damn!!! it was havoc lar sey!!

aniway,thanks mimi for agreeing to go out wif me~

n now damn tired!!! not goin skool tmrw!!!

sooo here are the pics from my cam....

ps~if i lay here,would you do anithing??

2008-10-18T16:19:00.008+08:00

BIRTHDAE BOY!

wahh!!!! i just woke from my best sleep of all!!!
sooo last night rusydi bthdae was held at pasir ris pit 1!!!
it was damn fun lar sey!!!
nearly most of the granolarBARS was there!! SYIIOOOOKKKK ARH!!!!
sooo eat alot.....played the cards n guitar...chilling n looking across the sea!!
went off exploring...n yea....sooo the peeps that stayed~
ME,RUSYDI,FLY,KHAN,DIN,HISHAM,FIRS,ZUL && ATIQAH!!!
damn onli the 9 of s was like damn fun lar sey!!!
n to faris & atiqah, HOPE THE FENGSHUI is still there..hahaha!!!

granolaBARS

soo exploration to the swamp was like havoc lar oiii!!
damn the SHORT ROCKER was sooo afraid!!
had balls at his throat lar sey!!!
aniway~ that guy is khan...the short rockerfella..
bt heard of diff noises like duck quacks n the grrrrrrrr sound!!!
sooo went back n packed up...
got home ard 6.30am!!
n now i just woke up!!!woah!!! syiook arh dpt sleep!!

HANTU-HUNTERS

ps~kau hanya kekasih gelapku~

2008-10-15T01:50:00.005+08:00

lifes been up and down!!!

gosh!!! seriously i miss her..bt wana know sumting tats realli heartbreaking??

she delete me off friendster...how much more sad can it be!!

can i realli know why?? did i do something something really wrong??

im sorry for wat happen last tyme...if an apology is not enuf,what more do u wan??

& still no msgs were replied....sooo like down down down for me...

can you like tell me why r u doing this to me??

even though i have lots of girlfriends as apiz says,i can be realli faithful to you if you want..

gosh~ suffering in silence..u may see me smile that often..

bt one thing is for sure..im still sad n waiting at least for you to reply to me..

soo this is just my confession abt you....

hope you know who you are...

& im still waiting~

2008-10-13T17:00:00.004+08:00

i simply miss someone i guess!!

n its not olalla~ sorry for saying this..bt i need to get it out of me..

n to goobers....its not her the bloody gerl that i hate...not her oso!!!

damn..i dnoe y im feeling this way~ bt damn i kept tynking of her everinow n then!!!

i simply said that i miss her...damn..wana know her..just some clue would be nice..

SHES JUST MY BROTHER's GIRLFRIEND's FRIEND!!!!

just that...i tried to msg her bt to no avail....i regret wat i did last tyme to her...

simply move on n leave her..please!! im sorry!!

n yea...its been afew daes that i kept thinking of her...i dnoe y...

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME??

WAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO??

PLEASE!!!

2008-10-11T01:05:00.003+08:00

current mood~ sad & lonely

current song~ ingkar-Bunga Citra Lestari

went out wif the clowns jux now....

sooo was lyke damn tired lar sia...evrityme arab street!!!

confirm mati lar sey if like this!!!

aniway!!!

went off to kallang first to watch a soccer tornament....

n gosh!!! havoc lar sey!!!!

den went off to arab street~

den at arab street....wif only the 7 of us,turns out to be 10 of us suddenly...

guess wat happen??

3 girls from the next table suddenly become like our members!!!

chit chat n played stupid2 games!!!!

bt 1 stupid thing didnt do!!!! TK MINTAK NOMBOR!!!!!

HAIYOOO!!!! DUMBASS!!!!!

sooo went back home tiredly!!!!

damnit!!!!!

ps~i feel sooo single n lonely...

2008-10-10T15:11:00.004+08:00

current mood~happy!!

current song~ Dear God - A7X

went out wif gronalaBARS last nite....

went off to eat at zam zam restaurant...

den went too sheesha....gosh!!!!

havoc to the max....

soo went to amirahs grill...as ain recomended...sat at the rooftop n chillin over there...

the banana milkshake was superb i tell u!!!

bt yea....sheeshaing was damn great!!! no noneng this this tyme..

aniway,was lyke damn tired lar sey!!

later the clowns ask me out again..

goin where?? SHEESHA!!!!

mati2 confirm mati!!!!

no hope lar....im dead for sure if i go there again...

hahhaa....sooo i still tynking if i shld go or not....hahaha!!!!

ps~i still cnt get over you olalla...n yes...im waiting for you to at least msg me or ring me up!! PERIOD

2008-10-08T16:14:00.004+08:00

went out wif the goobers yesterdae...

was like crazy like hell...

turns out like 20+ pple turn up....veri2 the keco!!!

aniway,met up each other at my "akak ipar" house....seems like me,afro n rahman turn up 1st!!

wth!!!! i hate janji melayu!!!

aniway~ its was a damn tiring dae....made fwens wif diff pple n all...

n yea...went back home early in the morning ard 2+ like tat

gosh!!! now den i jux woke up

damn bloody tired!!!!

ps~i miss her like crazy~

2008-10-05T22:42:00.003+08:00

current mood~ TIRED~
current song~joget takle gitu~suhaimi yusoff

sooo went out raya again todae!!!
sooo sick n tired...
gosh~ i dnoe wen im gona recover...stupid flu n cough!!!
sooo went out wif my grandma n aunts all...keco2 rayer kepe..
aniway dint believe stil dpt duit rayer after 18...funny lar...!
bt aniway,i had fun for todae!!!
n yea...im gona be alone for this rayer...HAIXX!!!

ps~i cnt trust her yet~

2008-10-04T21:48:00.004+08:00

current mood~ SICK!!!
current song~ Bukan Bintang Biasa -BBB

sooo went out to town wif the clowns last nite.....plan n plan to eat at veri2 expensive place.

bt end up eating at BK...like veri the funny...

anyway,after eating at BK,went out off to sheesha...

gosh,i hate tat place....makes me puke n oso feel really sick!!!

bt aniway,it turn out to be fun bcos sooo much camwhore n many2 things happen on tat nite...

bt now im realli sick n tired!!!

ps~cnt u still not realise it??

2008-10-03T03:19:00.003+08:00

hari rayer was like boring this year...

tooo tired wif werk n till no mood to rayer...malas!!!

1st dae of rayer was like no other...

both of my atok dah tkde....sooo diff this year!!!

gosh~

sooo nt much hapen..jux ask for forgiveness...

dnt care much abt duit rayer n all...

n yea..rayer will kinda lonely without anione by my side...

haixxx~ bt look on the brighter side....i have u(fateha)

weeee~~

aniwy these r some of the pics~~

ps~is she the one??

2008-10-01T20:47:00.004+08:00

sooo hari rayer is lyke today~

gosh!!! no mood...

im jux soo bloody tired after the clean up at werk...

damnit....cannot tahan...my eyes r lyke sooo heavy n my body is lyke sooo tired....

got back home at 7+am lar sey....wah....!!!!

i nid a damn break or evn holidae perhaps....

bt aniway,i realli have fun at werk....

gosh im gona miss them lar oii!!!

maybe we mit during hari raya outing perhaps??

bt yea...these r sum of the pics tht we took during those memorable tymes~~

im gona miss you ayu,ahgirl,fateha n the others!!!

ps~she like soooo nice to me...

2008-09-28T03:39:00.005+08:00

few daes left to rayer!!!
gosh~ i just dont feel lyke rayering this year!!
sooo F***ing tired lar werkin all dae long..
alwaes got back home ard 3am!!!
bt worthwhile lar....make new fwens n fun...

sooo wana say bout the werk colleagues....
HISHAM~kecorable..alwaes go back home wif him...THANKS 4 THE RIDE BRO!!!!
AYUNISHA~~ finally got to know ur real name..u r the sweetest person at werk...never fail to make me smile sia!!! n yea....BABY "SYG" AYU ok???
AISYAH~a real outgoin person n veri2 fun to tok to~~
FATEHA~ a real quiet person....dnt know much abt her...bt she nice though~
BOSS~ quite irritating at tymes bt fun person..love to joke ard~

ps~too bz wif werk nwades till no tyme for msgs or call~ mit me at werk oK!!!

2008-09-24T01:32:00.002+08:00

current song~ Hadirnya Cinta-Gerhana Ska Cinta

current mood~ Tiredddddd~~~

1st dae at werk was lyke keco lar oii!!!!

sooo met up wif hisham n get to werk wif his vespa...

GEREK or wat!!!

aniway werk started n yea..was lyke bored b4 buka bcos theres like less customer...

after the buka,started the KECONESS!!! start selling stuff n all!!!

gosH!!!!! keco~~....bt yea...

met wif mcm2 org....makcik keco lar,hot mum....n oso BAPOK lar sioL!!!!

aniway make fwens wif "kak" ayu & "kak" aisyah was like fun!!!

sooo ended werk at 12.30.....got home....veri tired!!!

TMRWS A NEW DAE!!!!

ps~ it jux hurts when u say like that...i don;t wan u to go away from my life~~ pleasE stay!!!!

2008-09-23T01:35:00.003+08:00

had my hair highlight today!!! gosh~~

turns out to be ok....bt thought of having ash white bt thinking twice abt it...hahaha

apiz called me a MAT REP sia!!! cannot accept!!

bt it turn outs to be realli ok lar..

sooo went to apiz house chill there n watch movies n all...

tok2 wif his mum n all...n yea din n irfan was there as well...

KECONESS!!!!!

aniway,tmrw till hari raye will not be free...

werkin all the way~ gosh!!!!

shld be realli tiring bt its all abt the $$$$$$$$$$!!!!!

ps~stay or go???

2008-09-21T23:58:00.005+08:00

current song~ Tanpa-6ixth Sense

current mood~ peace & harmony

Telah jauh terpisah,
diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku,
tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya
Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah darimu,
Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu
Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku….
Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karena kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Didalam hatiku tuk mencintainya…

ps~terhanyut mencintainya...

2008-09-21T00:57:00.009+08:00

current song~ The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Scripts
current mood~ happy go luckyyy

went out to town jux now~

gosh...sooo the last min plan..met up wif syuk n irfan n head down...

gosh jux buke puase at KFC bt im not puasa-ing...hahha

aniway had the free coca-cola zero...soo the lyke shit

ZERO SUGAR!!!

soo was lyke irfan bought a pair of vans shoe which cost 59.90!!!

sooo cheap!!! n syuk bought an animal shirt..

my turn will be this fridae...cannot wait!!!

its was fun bcos it was lyke a while since i head down to town!!!

now damn tired!!!

soo,jux try out doin some macro pics....cool shits lar oii!!!

sooo heres some of the pics~

aniway,to all greengoobers guys!!! thanks for accepting me to be part of u all!!

i shld have said thank you bcos of introducing me to them..THEY ARE PART OF ME NOW!!!

maybe u r jux jealous of me being keco wif them..

n im INVITED by AFRO,RUSYDI & HAFEEZ KHAN!!!!

say whatever u want,i dnt care much abt u~

and once again to all greengoobers peeps!!! THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!

ps~when will i see your face again??

2008-09-20T02:13:00.006+08:00

current song~ You & I Both-Jason Mraz
current mood~ blurrrrrr

woah~~~ full packed dae jux now!!!
went to KAMPONG CHAI CHEE RESTARANT!!
was lyke wth~~saw her n she gave me tat stupid look~wth!!!!
bt aniway,it was lyke realli2 fun to buke out....hahha....
it was lyke a smoking corener tat we had!!! shoik lar sey~~
hahaha~rahman was lyke sooo the bloody becok!!! canot tahan!!!
sooo buke real late lyke 7.30....cos food came late!!! gosh~~

soooo after buke went off to haji lane to have sheesha~
gosh!!! its real nice to go there once in a while...
hahha..had the apple-mint sheesha...
it was nice at the starting ...share it wif mimi~ keco...
moments later was lyke 'noneng'...
went to the toilet n start vomitiing~ cannot tahan lar the 'noneng'
so yea~den was lyke lying down wif mimi n yea..kinda fall asleep wif her for a few moment~
yea..sooo went back home walking out lyke one addict says hani~
wtH~~...sooo had a truly fun dae jux now~~
gosh!!! head spinning lyke the fan lar sia!!!....shiok lar oii!!!!

ps~haixx..i miss you bt i dont know what to do....

2008-09-18T07:19:00.004+08:00

current song ~ blind-lifehouse
current mood~ tired

was tired last nite tat i fell aslip...gosh~
sorie hani tat didnt call u up...
too tired lar oiI~
aniway yesterdae is lyke a fun dae out~
gosh!!!!! gereks kepe...
went out wif afro,faris,hani & hisham....lyke crazy lar sey!!
sooo i went window shopping as next week plan to shop....cannot waiT!!
afro,hisham,faris shop lyke crazy~ bt the main bomb was lyke faris...cnt celieve he bought stuff till like $160 bt discounted till $120...crazy or wat!!!
soo yea....chill wif them till nite falls n went seperate ways~

sooo shopping plans are...
~retro long sleeve shirt
~bootcut/bellbotttom pantss
~new shades
~auburn dye & ash blonde highlight of hair!!! (MUST!)

ps~You see it takes more then just thinking you love someone...You need to have some strength to say those three words..."I Love You"...and im serious olalla~

2008-09-17T13:54:00.003+08:00

current music~ Love song-Sara Bareilles

current mood~ Tired

sooo past few daes been up n down...

damn tired~ not enough sleep~

soo nid the time off for a stupid rest n will chill my mind~

n to stop thinking too much...

so later goin out again wif the goobers n hani~

hahhaa....its gona be fun i guess~

goin town...soo if see me at town do say hi okie dokie~

aniway im seriously damn tired to blog now n yea....goin rest soon~

ps~my love,u're missed by me....thanks sooo much~

2008-09-16T01:32:00.003+08:00

current song~ my love-the sallys
current mood~in love

i guess its part and parcel of life is sumone have to go away~

maybe god loves the person more...

i will remember u alwaes my friend...

in loving memory to u~

u r alwaes remembered by me...

no mood to blog today~

ps~thank you my olalla for being there for me...

guess i will wait for you...i wnt let you down....I PROMISE!!!!

it will be perfect if we were goin to be together....

i know u r sick...please take care of urself my dear maryjane~

I MISS YOU MY LOVE~

2008-09-15T04:32:00.003+08:00

current song~ puspa-st12
current mood~sad

to you...i hope tat u will get well soon...
me n olalla have been praying hard for you to get well~
so i will be go to the hospital to have a look at you and sit by u soo that you get well..
hope everything will be fine my fwen...
n yea~ u've been a great friend or shall i call sister...
i dnoe wat to say animore...i hope everything will be fine...n pray hard for you till u recover~
no mood to blog now...=(

ps~thanks for being wif me thruout my dear mj...ku kn slalu menunggu mu...~

2008-09-14T03:06:00.004+08:00

current song-mak minah - too phat

current mood- crazy~~

todae is lyke sooo tiring....

went to grandmas house n yea...gld too see her...

sooo she said to me..."i miss you till im sick"

bt gosh i miss her too..

so yea...have alot of fun..catch up wif my cuzzin n all...KECO~~~

sooo everione was there..buka tyme~~

ate alot of ting...there was lyke pizza and all....gosh~

full of "lemak P&*!^@#"

sooo chilling ater buke n yea...alwaes chilling...laugh and all~

soo now gladly got home...tooo tired...

bt im bored n goin to rott at home unless sumone will gladly ask me out...PLEASE!!!!

ps~im gona be lost without u olalla...wish tat we can be together soon...i dnoe y bt im realli falling for you dae by dae...even though we jux met,i feel lyke weve've known eact other for a long tyme...i hope u feel the same way for me too my dear maryjane~

2008-09-13T02:11:00.003+08:00

sooo went out to simpang bedok just now wif the clowns to buke puase same2...

bt yea...we reached there at 6...SOOOO EARLY AND HUNGRY!!!!

gosh~orderad alot of thing...the bills ard 50++ lyke that....

its onli for a 6 person course meal..isnt tat too much or wat??

bt yea...eat till veri2 full!!!...bt i hte the tom yam....SOOO HOT TILL CANNOT TAHAN!!!

sooo chil2 n smoke there....till ard 8 den went to geylang...

soooo many pple there as i expected~gosh!!!!!

soo packed....sooo many2 pple...

TO BAKHIT~ AGAKNYE THE WHOLE OF GEYLANG KU KNL EKH!!!!

sooo went home ard 12 lyke tat....wah...soo tired...

tmrws a new dae....goin to grandmas house to buke puase same2....wah~

sooo tired~~~

ps~ i wana mit u again my love~ missing u too much~